Youthful Life: X

The 20s are all about being authentic. The hardest thing about college is knowing when you're actually being you. There are so many metta (that word totally peeves me) moments where you question whether or not you're being true to yourself. When you do or say something out character, is that going against who you are, or is it rather another side of you, which still makes it part of you (I just confused myself with that sentence)? I guess there's no real answer. How do we even know we're actually keeping it real. Even when we're faking it, isn't that just us being us (#mindblown)? There is something to be said about letting the real you shine through. The big question is what happens when you have to keep faking it? Let me bring you up to speed on last weekend as quickly as I can. So Friday morning kicked off in the aftermath of a night with little sleep with a physics exam that actually wasn't too bad (but me thinking something manageable means absolute...

The 20s are all about getting social. There comes a time in your college life when you have let loose, stray outside your comfort zone and have some fun. All work and no play makes everyone no good to be with. Everyone has their limits before they need to blow off some steam. Grab your invites, take some notes and prepare to glow in the dark.  This past week took it all the way there (please someone get my classic Degrassi  reference) and I was more than not about it. It was too much, too fast and all too soon. Life I'm begging you, pleading you, beseech ng the hell out of you to calm yourself and let me get my life together. Like dang, let a man breath every once in a while. Wednesday was an emotional day and I'll just leave it at that. Thursday came along and reared it's ugly head with a shat ton of classes and then it was straight to. a BOTSC (board of trustees selection committee) info session (cause you know I'm important or that's at least what people k...

Being a teenager is all about facing your fears. Everyone, and I means literally everyone, and everybody is afraid of something. It's what makes us human, imperfect, and for teens it's what keep us grounded. Even if it's not a specifically ridiculous fear like some of mine, heights, ski-masked burglars, elevators, fish, spiders, snakes, and all insects especially bees & wasps (let's just say I'm not an animal person) - it's a broader fear like of failure, being hurt relationship-wise or death. It's normal, and natural - but when you learn to deal with it, or better yet conquer it, that's when you can make the most of your life. Superstition is not the way (Raven Symoné sit). Superstition is one of those things that can drive people up the wall crazy. This past Friday was Friday the 13th, the third one this year (the maximum possible in a calendar year) - each of the occurrences were exactly 13 weeks apart as well. People were going bloody mad (...

Being a teenager is all about making a wish. There's only a few times throughout the year that you actually get to make a wish without sounding completely ridiculous, and as teens, I would never let them go by. From the countdowns to 11:11 (if you do both am & pm, you're doing the most), to blowing out candles on your birthday (that reminds me, I haven't done that in year - think some wishing is long overdue), and then there's the rarity that is a shooting sky. I've only seen on once, at school and it was mindblowingly cool. All I know is, starlight, starbright I wish I may, I wish I might ... Wishing is something that's personal, it's just for you and for whatever you believe. Whether that be the cosmos, karma, heaven or some mixture of them - wishes go somewhere. You've got to wish like your life depends on it. Wishing only works if it comes from the bottom of your heart. You have to wholeheartedly mean it if you want something to really happe...

Being teenager is all about those things that you can never seem to forget. It's a proven fact that we as teens remember the worst of the what happens to us more than all of the good. It's so easy to bring up those embarrassing moments where you wish you were invisible, all the drama that goes down on the weekly, and those incidents that you just can't shake. It's like that feeling when you leave a movie or end an episode of a show and for next like half hour you inclined to act like one of the characters. Get out of my head and out of my mind. Sometimes in college you just want to be done with it all. There's no rest for the weary and not a break insight, except for the perpetual countdown to summer. This weekend I realized exactly how much homework I had to finish before Monday morning when the vicious cycle started again. It's like professors are bullies and this MTV's "Made: the Movie" - seriously, it just never seems to stop. Even with an...